I don’t know why, but I have this obsession (perhaps even addiction) with consuming as much media as possible before my eyes start to surrender to the lulling need for sleep.
I can stay up for hours at a time, watching youtube, answering snapchats and scrolling through instagram despite taking little to no interest in any of what’s being presented in front of me.
And honestly, I don’t know why I do that.
I think it’s something to do with my sub-conscious goal to make the most out of my limited time here on our little floating rock in space. I mean, sleep is clearly a waste of a good 8 hours, right?
But it can’t be just that, can it?
People will literally tell me exactly how bad it is that I sit on my chair and stare at a screen for hours longer than necessary, and yet I’ll still repeat the same process every night.
Can I really put that up to my sub-conscious telling me to do the most with my time?
Or is it actually just my way of slowly killing my mental health?
Either way, I know I’ll repeat the same process tomorrow night.
And the night after that.
And the one after that.
Because let’s face it;
If I even could change my ways, I wouldn’t.
Enigmatic Thoughts 