Song.

I really wish I could write music as well as I listen to it.

I will spend hours on end listening to a certain playlist, album, artist or song that reflects how I’m feeling at a certain time (granted that yes, that feeling is generally depressive.)

But I just wish that I could focus that energy in a creative way as to put my emotions into music a similar way I put them into words.

I can imagine a soft bass replicating the hum of a computer, guitar strings mimicking the keys and my voice spewing out the words on the page into positively negative tunes. If only such a a dream could become a reality.

 

Speaking of dreams becoming reality!

 

I reached my lifelong dream to build up the confidence to sing in front of others.

Well, granted, it was one other person.

and granted, it wasn’t like a performance or anything.

and granted, I actually didn’t sing a whole lot, just a bit.

and granted, it was a a music teacher.

BUT!

I still think it’s an important step towards the right direction in terms of my mental state!

Hoorah!

 

(granted, I do still listen to depressing music on loop for 3 hours while going over revision and taking in absolutely none of it)

hoorah?