this week was pretty wild, to say the least.
and to say the least, I’d be saying “I’m a lot less scared of everything and I’m actually in a solid, good mental state at the moment.”
I’ve had some surprising character development, and I think it really shined yesterday, during Deb Practice.
now, you might think that someone like Will Ash would fucking hate Deb Practice.
and you know what?
I thought the same, initially.
it’s a culmination of all of my least favourite things
- people
- pressure to do well
- people
- wack as music
- physical contact with people I don’t know
- people
so I feared the worst.
but I was pleasantly surprised when I found myself actually enjoying it after a while. It’s certainly an interesting way to get to know a person.
genuinely, once that fear of colossal failure melted away, I had a really good time and I’m oddly looking forward to the next one.
and tonight, of course! tonight was a culmination of some of my favourite things
- my friends
- pizza
- my friends
- in-depth conversation
- surface level, meme-y conversation
- my friends
somewhere during the Hamilton-based escapade, however, I got really sad that I didn’t bring my camera, as I saw a multitude of perfect photo opportunities, as well as something to remember the night by (and, more so, something to remember my other-worldly good mood by)
this momentary sadness, however, faded away when upon the walk home, I spotted a rock on the ground.
it’s about the size of my palm, sparkly yet significantly dark.
and I’m very glad that I have a physical reminder of how much light there really is to be had in life, and that even in the lowest point in my life to date, I can find refuge within my comfort zone and outside it.
You know; Happiness can be found in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light. – Albus Dumbledore
Enigmatic Thoughts 