holidays.

ah yes, the time of year that every human can enjoy.

that is, unless, you live in Australia and are, surprisingly, not a massive fan of blistering heat and excessive sweat.

regardless, the most wonderful time of the year! the holidays! they have graced students worldwide and the rest of the nerds I guess.

 

one of the good things about this time of year is that all the clouds tend to clear up, giving my night walks some extra content to indulge – the stars.

ah, the stars.

we always come back to talking about stars, don’t we?

I mean, they’re a really handy writing tool because of their flexible metaphor usage, so take it easy on me.

 

with this period of time begun, and the clouds out of the way, I can finally sit amongst the stars and enjoy their presence.

over the course of the year, my focus has shifted between groups of stars. and although I love all the stars to bits, you can’t appreciate the entire night sky the same way you can appreciate a single constellation.

dear reader, if I haven’t made the effort to talk to you this holiday season, I extend my sincerest apologies – my focus has been blurry the past few days and I’ve indulged far too much in far too many things.

to the stars I have been able to spend my time with, thank you for choosing to do the same with me.

 

Christmas and New Year’s are a funky time, and this year is funkier than ever.
I’ve developed and changed so much over the course of the year, and between switching from hating myself to loving myself to hating myself consistently and without warning, I can appreciate that as young adults, we’re all changing a lot.

 

as a kid, I hated change.

as a teenager, it’d be pretty safe to say I still dislike change.

moving to Monivae this year was easily one of the most influential events of my existence, and I would go back and do it all again in an instant –

but when I first learned I’d be changing school, I broke the fuck down.

 

my point is, reflecting back on all that’s changed with myself, my family, my friends, and my life as a whole has been invigorating, to say the least.

moving into the roaring 20s is going to be huge, but for the first time in my life –

I’m looking forward to change.

 

I’m looking forward to seeing how I grow over the course of my year 12, and the battles I’ll face between my social life and my academic life.

I’m looking forward to making new friends, and watching old friends ride the wave of age with me.

I’m looking forward to hopefully getting a little taller.

I’m looking forward to the end of next year, and the beginning of my adulthood (at least, legal adulthood. inside I’m always going to be a teenager.)

I’m really looking forward to looking back on next year as fondly as I can look back on this year.

I’m looking forward to the beaches, the city, the drives, the music
and I’m even looking forward to exploring the rest of Hamilton.

 

 

dear reader, while the future is uncertain, and the charting the course of your life is never a safe gamble, I’m certain of one thing.

we, as a collective, are going to kick 2020’s ass.

you beautiful humans are going to go so far, and live so much, and I cannot wait to watch it all unfold.

 

I love you all.
– Will.

 

 

(P.S I now own the domain enigmatic-thoughts.com, and have removed ads because fuck ads and fuck you google for displaying fungus medicine next to my fucking existential crisis’)