Finale.

things don’t feel like they used to. these past few days i’ve felt out of my own body, i have to look at mirrors from time-to-time to make sure i’m still real. it’s hard to explain, but imagine being constantly aware of the passage of time and how little you can do to stop it’s […]

holidays.

ah yes, the time of year that every human can enjoy. that is, unless, you live in Australia and are, surprisingly, not a massive fan of blistering heat and excessive sweat. regardless, the most wonderful time of the year! the holidays! they have graced students worldwide and the rest of the nerds I guess. […]

Mistakes.

“I am unconscious of intentional error, I am nevertheless too sensible of my defects not to think it probable that I may have committed many errors… I shall also carry with me the hope, that my Country will never cease to view them with indulgence;” mistakes are what the human psyche builds on. they […]

forever young.

this one goes to you. the dreamers of the dreams. there are a few sure-fire ways of getting me to cry. the one that hits hardest is music, obviously. music, and memories attached to it. songs alone are often a solid way to get me bawling like a child, but songs that trigger memories, […]

existential mess (vol. ii)

for the first time in a long time, I looked at the photos on my wall. anyone who knows my room at all (which is the majority of my friends, because I showcase this place like it’s a temple) knows of the collection of polaroids sitting just above my desk fun fact: the first of […]

existential mess (volume i)

isn’t it daunting that the things you do as a teenager effect the entire rest of your existence? I mean, you’re forced into a schooling system that is designed to pressure you into higher education, then you’re shoved into a job you may or may not enjoy for the rest of your miserable existence. (if […]

Worthwhile.

Normally, I feel like my existence is unjustifiable on a cosmic scale. What I mean by that is, I feel like I don’t deserve to be here, whether for better or worse. My life on this hunk of rock doesn’t seem worthwhile, and a lot of times I’m tempted to just exit my existence so […]

Wasting My Time

Today, at last, a half-dystopian concept entered the depths of my brain and it was above the shallow level of “ooh jeez everyone is gonna die” train of thought, so I thought I better voice it to you all. I was thinking about teenagehood. And how little of it I have left to enjoy. I […]

Home.

Today was a perfect collection of scenes that blended together to make a timeless, amazing film packed with laughs, love and lots of sugar consumption. For your reading pleasure and my own (when I eventually come back and read all my blogs), I will recall each event in detail. Please don’t consider my writing as […]

Depend.

A while ago I wrote “I’m Not Sad”, a short piece about my narrow writing ability in that it’s too heavily reliant on depression and existentialism as a creative source. This piece hasn’t resonated with me since I wrote it until now, that is. My absence from writing has taken a noticeable toll, because […]