Mistakes.

“I am unconscious of intentional error, I am nevertheless too sensible of my defects not to think it probable that I may have committed many errors… I shall also carry with me the hope, that my Country will never cease to view them with indulgence;” mistakes are what the human psyche builds on. they […]

forever young.

this one goes to you. the dreamers of the dreams. there are a few sure-fire ways of getting me to cry. the one that hits hardest is music, obviously. music, and memories attached to it. songs alone are often a solid way to get me bawling like a child, but songs that trigger memories, […]

existential mess (vol. ii)

for the first time in a long time, I looked at the photos on my wall. anyone who knows my room at all (which is the majority of my friends, because I showcase this place like it’s a temple) knows of the collection of polaroids sitting just above my desk fun fact: the first of […]

existential mess (volume i)

isn’t it daunting that the things you do as a teenager effect the entire rest of your existence? I mean, you’re forced into a schooling system that is designed to pressure you into higher education, then you’re shoved into a job you may or may not enjoy for the rest of your miserable existence. (if […]

Worthwhile.

Normally, I feel like my existence is unjustifiable on a cosmic scale. What I mean by that is, I feel like I don’t deserve to be here, whether for better or worse. My life on this hunk of rock doesn’t seem worthwhile, and a lot of times I’m tempted to just exit my existence so […]

Wasting My Time

Today, at last, a half-dystopian concept entered the depths of my brain and it was above the shallow level of “ooh jeez everyone is gonna die” train of thought, so I thought I better voice it to you all. I was thinking about teenagehood. And how little of it I have left to enjoy. I […]

Home.

Today was a perfect collection of scenes that blended together to make a timeless, amazing film packed with laughs, love and lots of sugar consumption. For your reading pleasure and my own (when I eventually come back and read all my blogs), I will recall each event in detail. Please don’t consider my writing as […]

Depend.

A while ago I wrote “I’m Not Sad”, a short piece about my narrow writing ability in that it’s too heavily reliant on depression and existentialism as a creative source. This piece hasn’t resonated with me since I wrote it until now, that is. My absence from writing has taken a noticeable toll, because […]

Close.

I’ve noticed this feeling that’s been developing over a long period of my time, where I feel as though I’m close, unbelievably close, to achieving something or anything, but I’m not quite there or I’ve somehow missed the target. On a life scale, I am really close to something. Being out of school. But this […]

Legacy.

Everyone worries about the future, right? I mean to say that people don’t know what the future holds, so they tend to stress about times ahead. But what about your legacy? What you leave behind for the world to see? What about my legacy? When I die, what will people make of me? I […]